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Have you ever felt like breaking down in front of your friends, people, strangers? 

Well, basically I fought with Thomas the other time. It was really brutal. I didn't know what to expect. That they guy I cared and I called my 'Bestfriend' is actually, becoming a stranger to me. :/ Today, I went to Orchard with my Sabrina and Adriana. around 5 plus, we went to JP to relax at Starbucks. and the most hurtful incident is, Thomas was going down the escalator and I was going up. We made eye contact and he was with a girl. I almost broke down. Literally.

Do you know the feeling when you have eye contact with someone you fought with? and you know their gonna hate you. but still, you see them and your heart races and tears welled up. I really was scared to even go home. He lives around me. And my heart beats faster every single time that I remember that incident. 

I really couldn't bear the pain. I almost cried in the bus. 

I may seem a happy girl all the time. Putting up smiles on people's faces. Couldn't care less about my own problems. I seem to care about others more than myself. I want to be happy. I want no problems in my life. Right now, it's hard for me to cry instantly. But a person have to really hurt me physically or emotionally to make me cry again. I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN. please God. I beg you. 

"and a silence, voice is numb. Try to scream out my lungs but, it makes this harder

as the tear stream down my face. If we could only have this time for one more day.

If we could only turn back time."