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Have you ever felt like breaking down in front of your friends, people, strangers? 

Well, basically I fought with Thomas the other time. It was really brutal. I didn't know what to expect. That they guy I cared and I called my 'Bestfriend' is actually, becoming a stranger to me. :/ Today, I went to Orchard with my Sabrina and Adriana. around 5 plus, we went to JP to relax at Starbucks. and the most hurtful incident is, Thomas was going down the escalator and I was going up. We made eye contact and he was with a girl. I almost broke down. Literally.

Do you know the feeling when you have eye contact with someone you fought with? and you know their gonna hate you. but still, you see them and your heart races and tears welled up. I really was scared to even go home. He lives around me. And my heart beats faster every single time that I remember that incident. 

I really couldn't bear the pain. I almost cried in the bus. 

I may seem a happy girl all the time. Putting up smiles on people's faces. Couldn't care less about my own problems. I seem to care about others more than myself. I want to be happy. I want no problems in my life. Right now, it's hard for me to cry instantly. But a person have to really hurt me physically or emotionally to make me cry again. I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN. please God. I beg you. 

"and a silence, voice is numb. Try to scream out my lungs but, it makes this harder

as the tear stream down my face. If we could only have this time for one more day.

If we could only turn back time."

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okay soo. I'm back to blogging for today. I kinda love my dance family now, since we are getting closer to each other. :) only that, next year would be some of the senior's last year. like Kevin,Raymond,Wee Suan, Joyce. ): anyway, some people just don't get the meaning of cursing and karma. I did not curse you or whatever shit. It's called karma. get that screwed in your brain. even if you go to jail or not, that's what you get really. karma's giving a slap on your face to warn you.  You just want her cause she has big boobs. lol, I hope you can suck on it as much as you want. asshole. 

no time to be angry at this kinda of people just a waste of your time actually talking to them. 

2012 is around the corner. it's a good sign, I guess. I just don't want to go to school. that's it. same shit different day. same people, same shit. things I'm excited about to see next year is my friends, Shee Kiong, seniors and at least new principals. I hate it when you're just making friends with seniors. having heart2heart talks, laughing together and then you realize they're graduating next year. ): today's plans is to meet Adriana and Alvin @ JP and then go Dhoby Ghaut. :) I want to go to the #proudthundies gathering next Tuesday. ): hmmmm, see first. ^^ oh yea, today kinda stayed up talking to Thomas on the phone. and then I fell asleep. and woke up again due to his calls at 4am. alright then, I think I should take a power nap. just in case I don't get panda eyes. :) alrighty, bye.