I promised God, that I'll never let you go. But I failed. I'm sorry.

Dear You,
I'm sorry for what I did. Look at us now, we're separated. I made a promise to God that I'll never let you go. But I broke it, and I'm in so much guilt. The reason why I had to, is that we keep on fighting for no reason. We get hurt cause we misunderstood. It's unhealthy to the relationship. I really really didn't want to let you go, but I have to. I don't want to keep you under my property, and become so over protective. I want you to explore and meet new people. For your info, I'm crying while typing this. Besides the point, I want you to know that, whatever happens, I'm always here. If you need me, I'm here. It hurts to see that I can no longer call you 'Baby'. It'll be really awkward since we're gonna be friends now. I'm standing strong, and keeping my head held high. You'll always be my baby.  I really really really love you. And though it's gonna hurt seeing you move on with someone else, but I'm sure that 'someone' is special to you. Treasure her please. You were the best I ever had, and if I ever get a chance to get back to you, you know I would, and I will change for the better.

Rick, I love you. :'(

I'm sorry. The reason why I can't leave you is that, I can't bear to see you walk away and I love you too much to leave you.

cry,cry,cry.

I love you, but you just don't see it. :/

every time, I look at your profile, I die a little inside, to see someone else liking your posts. I go back to me, and look at myself. Ugly. I can't be like the ones you wanted. I'm sorry for not being what you expected. I'm sorry I'm not perfect. I'm sorry for existing. I think there's a lot more other girls who can impress you. I'm sorry for making you cry. I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for misunderstanding. and I'm sorry you had to say I love you to me. Every time I see my guy friends, it hurts me more, cause you're not one them here. My friends keep asking around why I'm crying. I can't say much, cause you're the reason. I go home alone, and think, why do I even have to go home? It's like there's someone that is gonna comfort me? No. Including you. You don't do that.  I control my emotions whenever I talk on the phone with you and grabbing a knife to slit my wrist. I may sound really silly doing that, but I'm human and I'm weak.  I go around hurting people, and you go around meeting people. I'm weak, imperfect, ugly, hated and broken. If I asked you would you leave me, would you? Would you walk off, and find somebody else? I hope you don't, cause I still Love you.

Guilty pleasures.

"How does it feel like being ignored?"

" It feels bad. Really bad."

Hi, I just came back from shopping @ Bugis with Daddy and sis. (:

Well, nothing to elaborate about. But I'll tell you about what happend ytd.

Went to Park Mall to break fast at Fish & Co. then go to Paragon @ Orchard, then go home.

Only that la, nothing else. Nothing really 'surprising' this weekend. -_- bored. Ah, I don't want to see that Orry Zhang's bitchy face. GTFO la Ms Zhang. Go fuck yourself. I HATE LITERATURE. why the fuck do we have to learn poems when we have this thing called a book and English lesson. stupid. I HATE MONDAYS. ugh. -__- 

My BOYFRIEND! :D

What if?

Hello (:
I AM SOOO TIRED. -___- dance was really epic. srzly. Okay so, start where?
Thursday? Ok can. ^^
Thursday, 18th August 2011. -Shee Kiong's 14th Birthday+Daddy's Birthday!- 
Soo, I came to school alone as usual, then go class and slaaaaaaccck. Go to cyber cafe, see Shee Kiong and I say, "Oi! Cute boy! Happy Birthday la, gundu." awesome rigghhtt. I iknow. the he was like, " Thanks la cute girl! Go and assemble at the parade square la, gundu!" Then I walk away laughing. HAH. so cute. :B I simple LOVE Thursdays. :D just another 24 more hrs to FRIDAY! :D GEHEHHE. anywaaay, Thursday I skip History remedial.
LAZY LAAA. :B so I take 179 with Ishral, Dian and Nabilah. Go home around 4pm. Get ready then go out and tak 240 to bus interchange then 180 to Teck Whye. Then take taxi to 
Marina Bay. celebrate Daddy's birthday ^^ then lllalala, homeee.

FRIDAY! TGIF. TGIF! :D

Friday, 19th August 2011. - Izwan's Birthday!-'

HAHAHA. Soo, today was Izwan's birthday. Since I didn't get the chance to tell him in the morning, I told him during his English class. When 2T1 slaaaaack all the way. tsktsktsk.

In the morning go Safra for swimming lesson. Walk back to school for Geography. Then music, then MT after that I walk pass the Sec2 classes and met Izwan and said, "Oi, paikia, Happy Birthday. Go listen to Lulu Jiang la you!" Then he was like, "You shut up. This Jiang jiang jiang, really need to shut up la. LIKE YOU LA AHLIAN! " hhahahhahhahaha. aiseeeh. after that Class Time. Then go kidz amaze! :D WAHSIAO. shiok ahhh. heheheh. then at 3 got dance. then had Master Parade. but Shee Kiong was not there. >: he got some shooting rifle at lvl 2. AIYO. hahaha, okay la that's it. muah muah. love you 

all ^^

I'm sooooooooooooooo bored. 

I'm so lazy. YAH. -__-

SOooooo, I'm at home with my brother. loled, both lazy people :B I WANT TO GO SHOPPING PLEASSSSE. ): IF YOU EVER LOVED SOMEBODY PUT YOUR HANDS UP! *puts hands up*

GUESS WHAT?!

I DIDN'T GO TO SCHOOL! 

YAY ME! 

probably gonna ask me why?

Are you sick?

Are you having a flu?

Are you okay?

Someone went to the hospital?

Someone died?

What is it?

answer is....

I'm just super fucking lazy today.

I'm so addicted to you.-

"Do you still think of me, like I think of you? Do you dream of me, like I dream about you?"

Hi. Today, 13th August. 2 month anniversary to me♥ 

Anway, today I met Dylan at 3pm at Lakeside. We walk walk around until 6.30pm, then my brother called and said to meet him at Bugis. LOL, lucky I was there. :) Say bye-bye to Dylan then went to Zac's cafe to break fast. at 8pm+ go to Helix Bridge at Marina Bay Sands. take some pictures. ^^ 

Nice? :D Heheeeehhe.

Then went to the Board Walk. To sit down. :D and take pictures. :D we went to to Marina Bay Sands Hotel to book a room next week for my daddy's birthday. (: around 10pm we took bus 502 back home. Went to SPC to buy drinks because we were really really reaalllyyyyy thirsty :b 

Change shirt then go out AGAIN. this time was with my brother, Dylan and Jeff. Just slack and do some stupid things. :B go home at 3am. So yepp.

My brother. ^^ 

Okaaaaaay, that's it for today. :D BYEBYE (:

Introducing me. (:

I'm trying my best to stand strong and move on but,

You just won't let me. ):

Hiya (: Today, was DOPE. Hehehe, I went to school with Janine and talked about Shee Kiong all the way. :D Weird? I know. HAHAS. For the fact that I have a HUGE crush on him, I'll try my best to avoid any misunderstanding.  Day started with laughter and smiles♥  Then had PW, quite fun but stressful -___- jialat. Then recess, slacked at Music Terrace with my guyfriends♥  and girlfriends♥. 

After that went up to Level 3 to look for Shee Kiong.  And omg, when I walked pass 2N1 my heart was beating sooooo fast that my legs were shaking and my cheeks was so red, my body was sooo warm. That when I walked pass, the girls and they guys were like, "Reen seh, pheweet. Reen! Shee Kiong seh!Reen seh!" ah. wtf. it makes it look like we're TOGETHER which we are obviously not. -_- loled. But brighten up my day la, srzly. Mother Tongue, don't ask la. That mother fucker chibai teacher Mdm Aishah can suck dick la. Walao, come into our class like nobody's business then want to be sooo fucking sarcastic. WTF. no life? no feelings is it? srzly, I feel like slapping her. But NOOOO, "we must respect our teachers" PUI AH. RESPECT YOU MY BUTT PLEASE! -_- bo lan pha la! bo jio. Bitch No.2 la you!

haiya, make my blood boil onlyyyyy. Science more fun! :D ehehehehehe. then Maths then, walkwalk at JP with girlfriends. (: then home. :D Hopefully tomorrow will be fun, HOPEFULLY. ^^ okay , BYE (:

Just so you know, this is how Shee Kiong looks at me. CAUSE HE'S FACE IS EXACTLY THE SAME

AS THIS GUY! Josh Hutcherson. <3

how he laughs.<3 ~melts~

but lemme just tell you. My boyf. is still winning (:

Oh yeah, guys you always have to know that, you need to know how a girl is. 

1. When you ask her what's wrong and if she says, "I'm just tired." then you better get worrying. Cause she's not tired. She's devastated. 
2. "I'm fine" ask her a lot a lot, of times. Until she tells you the truth.
3. "Just leave me alone for a moment" DON'T. DON'T she doesn't want you to leave her. Be there for her and comfort her. Cause she wants you.
4. Tell her good morning, I love you, I miss You, Good Night every time.
5.  And boys, be sure to ask her, " Babe, how was your day?", "Babe, how are you?", "Babe, everything good?" EVERYDAY, WITHOUT FAIL. got it? GOOD.

NOW GO! start asking! start caring! start being the boyfriend she wants. Cause if you're like this without getting tired, she'd be the most happiest girl in the world. <3 

-Abigail.

" There is always this one time, when you feel like giving up. But, you know that there's a lot of people who loves you, and you stand up again."


Hi. Ah, I'm tired. ): Yesterday was National Day! Happy Birthday Singapore. ^^ I stay at home, clean house. ^^ so guai. When break fast, relatives came. YAAAY. (: Happygirl. :D Last night, was otp with my guyfriend. from 12.30am til 3.45am.  And there's this one part when he kept quiet for 20 minutes -_____- and I was like, " Oi. Oi. Oi. Oi. Oi. Hello? OI. twinkle twinkle little star how I.. OI! eh. eh. eh. OI. chicken. never say..nananananannanana. OIIII. chicken ah you seriously. Lucky you not my boyfriend, if not ah, I slap you already."  Hhaa, then around 4am, he texted me and said, " Alamak! Sorry, I was playing my psp, I forgot about you. sorrrrrrrrrrrry. ):" seriously -_____- forget me. so sad. )': HAHA. anyway, today will be meeting my mum at Raffle's Place then go Simei to take my tailored baju kurong. ^^

The most biggest mistake a girl can do, is falling too hard for a guy. And I'm facing that now. :/ What should I do?  I think I need to put myself together and think this through. ):

Skies are crying, I am watching. Catching teardrops in my hands.

" Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed. All my windows still are broken but  I'm standing on my feet."

today's, celebration was a blast. (': had so much fun. Despite what happened the day before, I definitely had fun. I went to school with Janine, then slacked in class. Did the same stuffs. So sad that my girlfriends didn't came to school. ): But it's okay, I still have my guyfriends. ^^ I was with Firdaus all the way. My bestfriend♥.  He was always there when I needed help. (: He was there when I cried, screamed and suffered. He was there when I was heartbroken. He was always there [':

Firdaus, Wei Jie♥

Went back to class to have some activites [: Took some pictures that will be uploaded to facebook, hopefully. (: Then we moved to the hall. HAHA, the teachers' acting was soooo funny! Mr Mark become pai kia. And wth, our class was in one of the slides when they said, " Look at out class, so dirty!" and they put our class. -.- haha, but true la, our class dirty because all the pai kias in the class go tear the textbook. It was reaaaallly fun especially the upper secs and the Don't forget the lyrics and the Sec 4's and 5's rapping. ^^

My perfect plan to go to Kidz Amaze at Jurong Safra was ruined. -.- no one wanted to go. anyway, the price was already $11.20 other than $5. wtf. So me and Uriel slack at JP. loled, we walk and walked and walked and walked even more. So around 1+ I said, let's just go home already. So we went out separate ways. And I slept like a pig after that. Break fast then ta-daa! I'm here. -0- ( koala bear^^) bored. (-_-) wellllll. that's it for tonight. ^^ bye-yums.

To that someone special♥, Happy Birthday. Though, we may have had our misunderstood's and ignorance, but if there's anything I won't do, it's stop loving you. You can break everything I have, you can break everything I am. But I won't do you wrong, cause your special. And I will try by very best to impress you with my flaws. I'm lucky I met you. Cause you're perfect in my eyes. (': and if there's anything I would give up for, that's my life.  And you know I love you, even though there are times, when I just give and ignore you. I still love you. And I will always. And I hope you do too.

Happy Birthday, love. ♥

7/8/11 ♥

God Bless.