I hate myself.

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I feel like, I'm the laughing stock. I seem like I'm the happiest girl. Making people laugh, to cheer them up. But when am I being cheered up? Do you even like it when people tease you? Call you ugly, fat, skinny, slut, bitch, lesbian, gay, bisexual. I know I'm ugly, fat. I'm trying to fucking change all of these. And everyone is treating me like shit. Do you even realize, I can just stab myself now and die? I'm ugly. I'm bipolar. I'm sorry if I can't be perfect for you. I'm sorry I'm treating you like I don't give a damn anymore. Every single fucking day, I wake up every morning to look forward to all the shits people are gonna talk about me. I'm not ready to be left alone.  I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself. People say " Love yourself, before loving someone else" I'm sorry. I can't do that. I just hate myself. 

I'm not okay. 

I'm sorry, I just hate myself. 

♥ this one's for you and me. :)

 ♥  hey! :) well, exams finish already, yay! Monday was the last paper. It was Science. :/ damn difficult leh. :( I hate Physics! Me and Marcus wondering whether the teacher give us the right paper or not. Cause so many Maths question. When it's obviously Science! hmph. Well, I pray I'll pass. Not really get distinction, but maybe just a 50-50? Hopefully. c:  I hope I'll pass English, Literature, History and Mother Tongue. :D heh. Then like that, I'll get promoted to either 2N1 or 2N2. I don't want go Express. :/ the people so shit only! no life. attitude sucks. thennn, after Science paper, end at 10am. 10.30am go to Jurong Safra for swimming lesson. then at 12.30pm go walk around Jurong Point. C:

At MacDonald's , met Rizal! :D so cute! I miss him alot alot! :/ we talk very long. His friend is such a cutie. c: Alfiyan. Hehehhh. after that, go library around 2pm. then around 3, we head to Jurong Point. Ishral go home, Dian go home. Then met Rizal and Alfiyan outside arcade. We walk around go Kiddy Palace, then go Central Park. so fun. :) at 5pm, they send me home. Aww c': Basically I  ♥  them. :D

Today, wake up at 6am, shower all, then go out at 7am go Jurong Safra for the last swimming lesson. Damn fun! :) we end at 9.30am. Then we eat breakfast. After that, walk around then I met Arvin at Library. :) we talk heart-to-heart ♥  c: He shared his problems, and I shared mine. Trust me, h2h talk is the best. And it actually improves the bonding of two people. :) Tomorrow no school! PARTY HARD! C: awww yeaaaa. Anyway, today is my boyfriend's♥  birthday! :D 

Joshua Ryan Hutcherson, 

Happy 19th Birthday!  ♥  i  ♥ you! :D muahhh! c:

 ♥ heh. yes, it's Josh Hutcherson's birthday :) GO LIBRA! 12/10/92-12/10/11 AW YEA. Hehe. Well, that's it la. :D Hope everybody is happy. :) Friday getting result already :/ nervous shit. hmmm, okay. I LOVE YOU! :D byebye, oh and Good luck for O's seniors!  ♥ 

God Bless.

assholes.

Hi. :) Long time no post. 
Busy with exams. anywaaaaay, lucky Math paper finish already. so, yay. ^^ It was okay-difficult. Can do la, but zao. During break before paper 2, cb Irsyad. Go smack my butt in front of Byron and his friend. What the hell. Like embarrassing only! I run go catch Irsyad. :b HAH. after school, see Kevin  cause I walking home with  Byron then Kevin go shout, " Dating ah?! Byron, don't touch my girl you asshole!" HAHAH. epiccc. :b Next paper will be History and Science. 
SIAN. History, all about Golden Age, Emperor Qin, Tang Dynasty, Indus Valley, Inference. Science do Physics. SI Unit, 50N, Moment, Volume, Energy, Newton blablabla.
after that, I'M FREEEEEE! :D yay yay! anyway, 


Wanted to thank everyone for wishing me happy birthday :) All the presents was awesome. I love you guys, soooo much! kbye! <3