When nothing's okay. I think of you.

When nothing goes right, my heart says go left. To get a better view.

When things get worse by the day, my body tells me to sit down, while my eyes tells me to cry.

My brain stops to be smart for awhile, and automatically turned to the memories we had together.

That I know, will never happen again. It's too late to apologize.

It's too late to figure what went wrong, that's it. What happened back then was just a bad dream.

And I've woken up by it. I know, you're somewhere out there happy, and alive. 

God bless you. 

Just so you know, I'm fine without you. :D 

do you? :/

I don't want anybody else holding you. ):

Ohai. I'm so lazy today. Bibi is off at Malaysia. ):
damn early sia, it's like after class alr, he text me say want to M'sia. wtf. lol, but pray for his safety, since M'sia lost, they might attack us. ._. lame nia.  Friday morning go Safra with Irsyad. swimswim then rain. T.T then shine again. (: then swim, then shower. after shower, my eyes red, cannot open. )':  never bring goggles so, the chlorine go inside my eyes. PAIN sia. I hold Derrick and Dian's hand all the way back to school. and had a shut eye in Geography. recess quite okay, since Shee Kiong checked it for me and kissed me eyes. HAHAHA. cute ^^ music NDP song. \m/ mother tounge, then Class time. I act paikia. ^^ HAHA. i not guai okay.  why all of a sudden all my girlfriends want to join hockey?): fun meh? so sad, Dian want to quit dance and join hockey. then I left alone while she with Ishral. ): fuck la. that bitch. gnd please. I went home, change then went back to school to have dance. quite okay, went home alone, with my strawberry bubble tea. ^^ hehe. today, so moody. Alone at home, cook by myself ): but later tonight goign chalet with bro. (: so sleepy.

Yay that Ramadan is coming! (: but no fooooooood. ): but it's for my sake, and for Allah. <3 and it's going to be Hungry Ghost Festival tomorrow. I mean tonight! :D goodluck^^

all the time. ):

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain.

I can't always stop and stare

On Sunday, 24thJuly2011, I went to Daddy's house cause my grandma having her birthday. So I reached there at around 3pm+ they arrived around 6pm+. Baby Mika sooo cute. >.< Aunt Yasmin and Uncle Nas's new son. ^^ awwww. (': but sad, I had to leave early. I need to follow my brother and his friends to Changi to book the chalet for the upcoming weekend. PARTAAY! again. -.- after that, Faiz's brother had a car and he wanted to lift us up to Vivo. But then, halfway they stopped at Changi Hospital. cb -.- I damn scared liao lo. ): then around 8pm+ they decided to head to Vivo alr. had dinner then home. (:

Oops, I'm sorry, I can't help it. :B

Well, today. Monday was quite okay. I met Kev in the morning at the bus stop cause he said he wanna pass me something. And he gave me his old NY hat. ('; awwww. ^^ Went in class, and Jun Foo and Tim started to off the lights. It was Haunted House morning since it was Monday .^^ Lights was off and Kathir, Derrick, Dian, Jun Foo, Tim and me, was the only one in. The rest who came early had difficulty opening the door since they locked it with a broom. HAHA. so much fun. ^^ but really, when we quite, we could her 'sounds' D: AH. ahah, first lesson had P.E then Literature then Recess. AAH, SHEE KIONG, so cute. T.T then Maths. then Science, siao, half the class slept. -.- I also. MRT talk to boring, MRT( Mr Raymond Tan) after that was History then, assembly. Prize Giving Ceremony. congrats to all the dance seniors! :D after that had a Speech Contest, then had to act as a 'paikia' for our class project. HAHA. went home with Dian. otay, til here. ^^ bye-yums. <:

Last pic for the day! BYE. (:

I'm so jealous, I can't take it.

You can't see that I'm hurting. You don't notice the pain. It feels like everyone else is sitting in the sunshine, while I drown in the rain ☂.

Thursday was Racial Harmony Day , so I went to school with Derrick and Irsyad. Met at JP, the went off. I wore my traditional Malay costume, so did Derrick and Irsyad as promised. (:  Shee Kiong was having a really bad mood )':First lesson was English, then PW.But then, PW was relief by some teacher. Recess was a bore. ): I almost cried when I saw Shee Kiong. )': 

The rest of the day was well. Had some concert in the hall. Then, went home with Derrick

After that, I cried more. ): ): ): ): I shouldn't say it here. But it just hurts. :l  

I don't want to be a murder drowning in your souls.❦ 

Friday, July 22nd </3 the day I tried my best to ignore you, but I seem to fail every time I did. If only, there wasn't any heartbreaks. The world would be perfect. 

School started when Sing drove me to school (': After that, I met Derrick in class, and we started talking about something happening on the 6th Aug. Had assembly and then head off to classes. Dance was quite fun, only that I couldn't focus much. :[ Went home with Shee Kiong after his NCC. thanks. (': At night went out with brother to the beach. (: around 9pm, we went to Sentosa to meet Jared and Gerald. After that had dinner at Macs. Then went to West Coast  and met the rest.  

:D HOW CUTE. 

Saturday, 23rd July! YAY, 1N2 anniversary. (': Spent my time with my beloved classmates at Vivo (: I met Derrick and Kelvin first at JP then the rest Jurong East. Took the train to Outram Park then to Harbour Front. It was fun. ^^ I didn't manage to take pictures cause my phone batt low. ): But it's okay. It's all captured in my brain. After that, I had to go to my Dance class @ Cathay, Derrick, Kelvin, Lena and Mira accompanied me there until 5.30pm. Class ended and met the rest at Plaza Singapura to have lunch. 8.30pm, arrived @ Bugis to drink KOI. Hehe, and shopped abit at Bugis Street. Derrick's treat. ^^ we went our separate ways ): Me and Derrick met my brother @ North Point, then went to Pasir Ris to have BBQ. all ended well. Tired but still, had fun. (: 

RIP Amy Winehouse. )': Stay strong,love. 

last pic for the day. (: 

God Bless.

Tell me why, its so hard to forget.

There's always gonna be this one time, when everything will change. 

when my smiles will fade. When my tears will soak through my skin. And when one day, all will be lost.

It's not whether we're meant to be together. It's about how God gave us a chance.

My tears are real, my frowns are real.

My cries are deafened from the silence.

When everything is lost. You'll be the one to blame.

When I know that, things won't be alright.

You'll change. Move on, be happy. I'm here, praying to God to live longer.

because you just don't understand how I feel towards you. 

You disgust me, you hurt me. You lied. You broke the promises. You just don't love me.

When all the messages you sent, were fake. 

I don't believe you. I loved you. And will never forget you. 

Because you were the one, who lied to my heart.

-sincerely,

the girl who loved you.

Bass Down Low.

Friday,  080711. (:

Went to school then, that day Sec 2 's and 3's come back from their camp. YESSAH. 

I miss Shee Kiong like fuck siol. ;/ Hug them all then go NLB meet Erry the go home take 240 with him.

 Go home, text bibi. ^^ while waiting for him to go KL take pictures (:

Look at my sexy legs~ HAHA.

Sexy my butt la. loloolol.

And again. (: around 9 plus bibi go KL then get ready go Changi Airport. ^^

Go Changi Airport eat Quiznos then go Sentosa Siloso Beach there. Jarred got party. AGAIN. -.- 

go home at 3am. CANNOT SLEEP. -.- knn.

I got sugar rush~ lololol.

So take picture like nobody's business liddat. lolol. 

at 5am go sleep. ^^

Next morning, 090711. 

wake up like this. lol, wake up at noon. Go hawker center with Nicholas then go home.

Attended my sister's friend's wedding at Sengkang. 

Cute right me and my nephew ^^ heh.

After that went to my sister's house. 

That's my niece. Face similar? HEHE. <:

Got bored so watched KL Gangster. HAHA. 

So gangster hor. LOL. as if la.  go home at 1am. <:

sugar rush again. so slept at 3am. (: HEH.

LOL. Brother took my picture. -.- knn. but cute right I sleep.

tyty. I know I cute. don't jearous please. (:

100711 ^^

Went to Daddy's house and TUMBLR ALL DAY. (:

cuteguyss.tumblr.com \m/ awww yeaaah. (: 

then bibi came back around 6 plus. YAY! (: 

go home from Daddy's place at 11pm. (:

THEN TODAY. like knn. lol. Derrick like me? SIAO LA.

7 people alr like me?

chickeeennnnnnn.

Shee Kiong, Derrick, Byron, Nigel, Nicholas, Esmund, Kevin? 

including bibi, 8. CHICKEN. poor bibi. ): when I single, no one like me.

When I att ALOT OF PEOPLE LIKE ME.

feel like slapping siol. 

Go home take 179 go NIE then go home take 240. OKAY.

bye-yums.^^

Hi. My head,throat, leg hurts. ): Just now running with Kelvin the suddenly my ankle like out of balance then cannot walk properly. Didn't tell bibi about this, he's going to read this anyway. SEC 2 & 3 GO CAAMP. SHEEE KIOOOONG )': NOOO. >: During recess nvr do anything, stay in class. Kelvin and Uriel pei me. I soo sad today. Like rly. I cried when the Sec 2 left for camp. ): this few days is like so wasteful to me. >: so many things I'm not satisfied with. but what to do. Sad life. I'm trying my best not to fall like last year. I need strength to every obstacle faced me. I have my fears. Tmr HBL. No school, stay at home and study. -.- Friday. >: FRIDAAAY./ >: FUCK FRIDAYS. I HATE FRIDAYS. Friday, go eat shit and die. no mood alr liao la. cbkpkbninabuknnjialatbojibojiosimitaiji. FUCK LA. >;

painpainpain.

OHAI. I sibeh tired. T.T Friday had normal lessons during the morning then had speech day rehearsal after that. Then suddenly got fire. o___o THE SCHOOL WAS ON FIRE. JWSS. omg, some sec 2 guys played with fire. 2N1 and 2N2 classes was burnt. >; saad. The RCY's stuffs all got burnt. I so pity them. ): Who ever made that fire, should go boys home. Seriously. After that we all assemble at Hockey Pitch. OMG. Shee Kiong. T.T ugh. then the REAL speech day. WAHSIAO. so embarrassing >: I fell down when the song said, " JUMP OFF THE SOFA AND KICK IT OFF" so, we all had to jump, then the chair also fall. SIBEH. >: then didn't get to see Shee Kiong. ): after that around 10pm+ went to step daddy's house. and around 1am+ went home. The next day had BBQ at step daddy's park. Then at night party like some drunk woman at Sentosa for our 1N2 anniversary. <: went home at 6am. SIAL uh. Bibi is off at Msia. >; today going to tailor at Simei then going Expo for the GreatSingaporeSale. <:  LEG PAAAAAIN.  >: okay, paipai.